MY IMAGINATION

"Congratulation, You made it right"

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 12:39:00 -0500

I have been not enjoying weekends , don’t ask me why but apparently its been a dreary weekends lately. I found my self turned into a compete laidback person on earth, which is unhealthy. I should really find other cool new things to do rather than just hanging around with friends or staying at home.

I got up from bed and looked up to the clock. It’s already 9PM , and I’ve wasted 1 hour just to decide what to do today. I walked slowly with my bare feet, opened the curtain and greeted the morning skyline. I bet this will be a perfect day where I could loosen up every hassling thoughts. Then I went briskly to my bathroom, passed the full-length mirror that hang on the wall, I stopped and stared at my self. How nice, My hair was all muddled as so as my face. See? Weekend is such a big deal.

Things just went the same, always. I am still doing my daily routines, as a school girl. Going to school, Doing Homeworks, Hanging around with friends, or even staying at home. But there’s one thing that changed. I know I used to have this treasured time with someone that I knew as My Prince. I can say that I almost forgot that I had him all along, cause we used to hang out and together almost every possibilities. But now’s different.

I sat down on my couch after taking a quick shower and plainly dressed , still with no decision to make. I breathed leisurely and looked at the ticking clock. My tiny little heart starts to wonder, where are you now? What are you doing or how’s everything goin?. The last time we talked was 1 week ago and you said that you were preparing for the next Super Show and that mean that you’ll be out of town, again and again. I grab my cellphone near the bed lamp and looked at the screen without a blink. No sign from you. I tapped down your number, and a voice of Mailbox appeared and lucratively wounded my ear, and my feelings. Where could he be. It’s weekend so he should be at least had a time to send me messages or e-mails or calls.

I shook my head, tried to ripped off these thoughts that tried to get on my very nerves. I should remember that I pledge to my self that I have to Cherish the day. Suddenly my stomach was begging for breakfast, and I am craving for a strawberry waffle with strawberry toppings and vanilla ice cream on top. Looks like im gonna do some cooking for breakfast. So then I went downstairs still with my bare feet and plaid shirts with shorts, till then I heard a loud noise from the kitchen. Yeah my mom must be busy cooking for…. Lunch? She never cook anything for breakfast. I swiftly stopped walking and listen carefully, a bit frightened, I half-shouted

“Good Morning!! Mom are you cooking for our breakfast?”

Silence filled the air.

The noise just vanished all of a sudden, and no one even answering. If it was my mom, of course she would answer my call and continue making noises, if it was my maid she would answer me also. The fear of walking through the last 3 steps of the staircases surrounded me. I shouted,

“Hello???? Mom???”

Still silence.

I inhaled deeply and walked down the staircase , passed the Family room with a tip toed steps , I peeked to the kitchen, behind the wall. There’s no sign of someone, but the kitchen was a mess. I walked slowly to the kitchen, tried to see what’s the mess and noise is all about. A pack of flours, a milk that spoiled on the table , bucket of strawberries , a pot of boiling water , and—- a waffle maker.

Someone is trying to make a waffle—— with strawberries.

I goggled the view and tried to think before I walked out and asked my maid about this. I whispered to my self,

“Who’s making waffle?”

“I do”

Someone answered my question, a familiar voice.

I looked around, and a glimpse of happiness just struck me hard. You came out of hiding from the kitchen bar, white V neck shirt, knee high jeans, and a white towel that you tied in front of your forehead along to your head, and I noticed that you were holding a thin book. I abruptly startled, I couldn’t explain what to feel and what to say.

“B, I’ve tried, and I failed”

He raised his shoulder, looked upset and he got closer to me, handed me the book. Without even blinking, I looked to his flawless face.

“I read all the instructions that this book told me to, I’ve tried to mixed up all the ingredients, B. Then I failed …two waffles!” he explained vividly with his raised eyebrows .

Still without blinking, I could see he’s upset. I stroke his cheeks gently and said,

“How could you be this sweet?” I said and smiled. A grin on his face shown up, and he messed up my hair now with two hands.

“How could you be this miss-able?”, he said and buried my head inside his hugs and kissed my head, while I’m trying to breath cos of his powerful hug, which ended up biting his arm then he shouted in pain.

Laughters filled the air , now I guess the colorful day was just begun.

“Now show me the failed waffle!” I laughed. He widened his eyes, looked really surprised as if he doesn’t wanted to get embarrassed.

“I threw them to the garbage bin , I swear!”. He must be lying , even with those hands gestures shaping an ‘X’in front of his chest, I knew he lied. He walked infront of me, backwards and tried to block my way to the another messy kitchen bar in the corner of the room.

“No you must be lying!!! Come on I want a little bite! I’m hungry!!!” , I rubbed my stomach and said it infornt of his face, but he still blocking the way, now he widened his arms and keep shaking his head.

“OH MY GOD! THE WATER IS OVER BOILING!” I shouted to interrupts his blocks.

“What?”

I moved apace to the messy kitchen bar behind him and I saw two brown waffles with a dark brown color on its side. It wasn’t that bad. Only its over baked. I reached out my hand and tried to grab the waffle, but his grip was faster and stronger than me, so then he was locking my arms with his grips and he said,

“It’s un healthy! It’s over baked, B and it was my first trial! Don’t eat it!” He moved me away and he threw the two waffles to the trash can and he proudly smiled and said,

“Let’s find something else for my beloved princess’s breakfast! What do you want for breakfast B? I’m at your service!” he bowed and successfully made me laugh and threw my arms around him.

“I want nothing but to be with you this whole day! No I mean, all the time!” I said , looking through his lucid eyes.

“Will do, now lets stroll around the city!” he grabs my hand and walked me out from the kitchen.

“Siwonnie I have to change my clothes”. I cant imagine if im wearing this oversized T-shirt and shortpants to the city. He shooked his head and wont let me go from his grip.

“No b, lets just wear this, I wanted to be free for a while, and I want you to feel it too, the day is ours” he looked at me and smiled.

With my oversized T-shirt, shorts and a pair of flip-flops, I sat on the back seat, hugging you from the back, and my hair swayed with the playful wind in this humid day. We were riding a bike blissfully. You were paddling with such excitements, and I lay my head on your back, I could say this was perfect, I would love to be around you forever.

We passed the Foods Corner around downtown, and I am not interested in any foods. I am pleased , I supposed. You asked me hundreds of times what to eat and I’m sort of not interested in it.

The feeling that I had when he’s around is totally different from any other feelings, I feel save , I feel adored, I feel loved, I feel everything.

He suddenly stopped paddling in front of a Japanese Restaurant which is unfamiliar to me.

“How bout if we just stop here b?” he asked, and pointing to the unknown Japanese restaurant.

I shrugged. I constantly forgot about breakfast, and I didn’t even feel any hunger or a food beggar inside my tummy anymore. He did fulfill everything.

“Why is that b? you havent eaten anything yet, you must be hungry” he said with tilted head.

“No im not hungry anymore, lets just stroll around the city! Pretty pleaseee?” I hugged his back and begged.

“Are you sure?” now he got off from the bike and looked at me with his dashing dark eyes.

I nodded, then he messed up my hair—— again.

“Not for me , b. we sure need to find foods for you to eat” , a dimply smile lined across his face. I could’ve sworn I had the best view ever.

As we strolled around the city, I looked up to the bright sky, I thanked god for everything that had happened to me, everything is completely perfect. I captured every moment when I’m with you, yeah.. time stops. Time stops when I’m with you. You were still paddling with such excitements and my arms and head were still comfortably nestled around yours. Hence, I didn’t realized that you stopped paddling and you intend to got off from the bike.

“Where are we?” I asked, looking around. I sure don’t know where were we, there’s a bridge infront of us, and there’s a guy with a guitar, singing marvelously, with a box of coins infront of him. I got off from the bike and startled to see the man with a guitar, he’s an old man with a furry white beard, but he got a marvelous voice and people were there to watch him, with their heads nodding as if they were following it’s tune, and some of them were also clapping their hands .

“Siwonnie” I called his name once, but he didn’t answer, and my eyes were still looking at the singing old man.

“Siwonnie looked at that man” I called him once again and now I looked to my left. He wasn’t there. Surprised, I looked around to find him. And yes, I found him standing beside a HotDog Booth, looks like waiting for his order, he waved his hands to me with his wonderful smile. Knowing that , I decided to walked generously towards the singing old man, tried to enjoy the song like the other did. The old man sang a reggae song which I don’t know what it is , but I feel like my feet were geared up to dance.

A tap on my shoulder amused me when I lunged in with the tune of the song. I tilted my head to the right and you give me a medium-sized hotdog that you just bought.

“Don’t you feel hungry too?” I asked him, and he constantly shook his head.

“ No, but I have to make sure that you didn’t skip your breakfast because of my failed waffles” he said truthfully. I rubbed the back of his head and said.

“ You don’t need to feel sorry! I wasn’t even hungry!!” I said with a giggling tune.

“Bella… come on, eat it! Well at least, a bite!” . I could say that he was begging me, cause I can see his raised eye brows. Because of that, the warm hot dog entered my mouth, down through my throat, then to my stomach. Yes I can see a relief through his face, and I cant stand to laugh, he’s not like any other man.

“Watch this b”

He abruptly said as I finished eating the hot dog. He jumped in to the crowds, and he stood near by the scabby old man who’s still singing another reggae. He whispered something to the old man, and the old man replied it with smile and continued to sing with such excitements. He was still standing there, banging his head a little, following the tune. I swore I just cant help it to laugh, and I realized that it was such a stupid idea. People could recognize him in any minutes if he keep showing off like that, then I bet today will be ended up with fans chasing on the back of our bicycle then permanently stalking us everyday. I raised my hand, tried to give him a command to get back to where he belong, not standing in the middle of the crowd, innocently. Applauses filled the air when the old man done singing, and the crowds left him coins afterwards, as so did I.

Nothing’s more shocking than seeing you with the old man’s guitar on your hand, and you were standing there happily. I bet the crazy fan girl would recognize you then we’ll ended up chase by those girls.

“ Hello, well um—I wanted to sing a song for a girl, whom I loved the most, and yeah, she’s the reason of why am I standing here” he winked at me and grinned. Now I feel the crowds eyes were on me, and my heart was drumming fast, and my cheeks were burning in red.

“Here’s More Than Words for my one and only, Princess”

He started singing, and melted me in to a pond of puddles. I couldn’t believe I had him all along, he’s a perfect man figure, he’s a prince which I loved the most. I havent even seen him with guitar, I didn’t even know he could play guitar. Astonished, I moved closer to the front of the crowd and leap my self into him when he finished singing. I wrapped my arm around his body, and the crowds were cheering deafeningly.

I captured us wandered along the city with your black bike, up above us were the clear bright sky sprinkled with puffy clouds and a soothing wind. I remembered you asked me to come along , cause we were heading to your home. Your big home, or should I call.. Mansion?. I have never visited yours, and you invited me cause there’ll be a lot of fun things to do, so I merrily accepted your request.

“Arent you tired of paddling?” I asked him in a high pitched tone.

“don’t your worry b! my house is not far away from here” he answered.

I walked in to the exclusive mansion I ever saw. Garnished with white ceilings , floor , and furnitures. I looked around without a blink. Mr. Choi’s photographed hanged on the wall, he didn’t really look like siwon, but he got that elegant face.

“I’ve got something for you to see” he said, looking at me and grabbed me by the hand.

We walked through the big living room, the enormous hall, then you lead me to your backyard but not until someone called your name.

“Oppa!”

It was a girl.

A voice which…. I don’t know.

A clacking sound of high heels echoed through the hall. Someone must be on the way here, and it was a girl. I looked at your curious face. I was even more curious.

“Oppa I’ve been waiting for you!”

There, a perfect looking girl with black high heel, long legs, white skirts and blouse. Perfectly rounded eyes, small pale lips and a wavy shoulder length hair. Familiar, she must be a star.

The girl moved closer to Siwon, he didn’t say a word, but he did let me go of his grip.

I was standing right beside him when she freely leaped her self on him, wrapped her arm around his neck.

Devastated .

I knew I should get my self away from here, without looking back. This is utterly a surprise, he finally made It right.

“Where have you been? You should’ve been gone so long! What are you doing exactly?” the girl asked and she let go of her flirty grip.

“I—- uh—-I, oh hey! Let me introduce you—this is Bella, My girlf—“

“Bella” I longed my hand and shakes her hand before he finished his sentence.

“Chae rim”.

Fine, she’s really is an actress. A famous Korean drama actress.

“Nice to meet you bella! Me and Siwon is gon—“

“Thank you, I don’t really need a specific information” I told her right through her face.

“And you! Congratulation, you finally made it right. This is such a wonderful surprise” I looked on his face, and I tried to hide away my tears to flow, I am emotionally mad at him.

“Let me explain B, you didn’t know the whole thing” he said , standing in front of me.

“Oppa come on! We don’t have much time” Chae rim took his arm and pulled him slowly.

“ This is awful, I knew I shouldn’t be here. I shouldn’t go with you, and I shouldn’t knew you anyway”

“What are you talking about b?”

I could see that sad face painted across your face. Or should I say, guiltiness?

Chae rim keeps yelling from the back, still pulling your hands.

You have been hanging out with her lately, I just knew it.

“Thank you for your surprise, I’m going home”.

I constantly turned around and walked apace to the front door, I tried hard to hide my tears. Even if I feel that I’m such a pile of junk, standing there watching your loved one be with someone else. I walked fast and thinking of looking back.

I did looked back.

And the best part is…

He wasn’t there watching me go.

He’s gone.

To be continued……..

Pictures Perfect

Tue, 23 Feb 2010 12:22:07 -0500

yes this is love.

xo,

Our day

Tue, 12 Jan 2010 12:21:00 -0500

A thrill of excitement came rushing to my body and down through my spine as soon as I read your message on my phone screen. It was just another ordinary and regular day at school, same students, teachers , classrooms, subjects and so on, but it was not anymore until my phone vibrated and I received your message. You’ve been busy with your jobs and as usual, you got no time to deal with me. So all that I can do is waiting for you to call, cause I have no guts to bother you and your busy schedule.

I was sitting near the window at the Math class, the teacher was blabbering about some equation on the board, half of the students were listening while the other’s didn’t , and so do i. I kept looking on my phone screen and read your message over and over again :

Hey B! I’m gonna pick you up around 3 at school kay? lets grab some early dinner somewhere. Imy b, see you :)

It was just an ordinary message, but not for me. I can feel my self smiling for delight and anticipation, then someone nudged me twice on my arm. It was my chairmate, Dea. She’s stared at me without even blinking and her eyebrows are about to connected as one, she looked really curious.

“Why the hell are you smiling?” she asked, she took a quick glance to my phone then back to the teacher who was now still rattle on the equation on the board and noticing that no one was listening to her.

“there’s nothing funny about her” , she shook her head with confusion. I sighed and giggled a little.

“It wasn’t about her, you silly! My prince is going to pick me up after school!!!” I yelled and clapped for three times. I could see her eyes widened and her jaws was about to flung open but she quickly covered it with her palms. I could say that she’s excited as well.

As the bell rang, I swiftly went outside the class and went through the massive crowds at the corridor. I didn’t even wait for my chair mate, I couldn’t think about anything else beside you . Everything about you are just wonderful, you are full of surprises, you always made my day.

The icy air whistles around my ears as I went outside the school. It was still a cold day on January, Colours are brighter against the pure white blanket that spreads as far as the eye can see. The airs smells pure and fresh. Everything seems quieter, almost muffled. There is a sense of serenity in the atmosphere. I walked through the snow covered pathway to my school’s main gate where he used to parked his car. There’s no sign of him. I looked to my phone’s clock and yes it was still 2.40 , so then I sat on the bench near the main gate, watching the throngs of students went out of the school, all of them looked trembled because of the cold even though they have already snug inside many layers of clothes .

I looked several times on my phone screen, waiting for your messages or calls. I know I should’ve call you to hurry or asked you where were you, but I decided to just stay put and wait for you patiently, I tried not to whine cause you have never whine or complained about anything to me. I am trying to do the same.

Thirty minutes have passed, but there’s still no sign of you, and I started to worried. There are still a couple of students at the school yards, chit-chatting and some students playing with the snow. I looked around and still believe that you would come and picked me up just like you said before. You have never broke your promise before, I knew you would never broke one. My fingers is starting to get numb, as so as my skin, it’s getting colder and you’re not even here. I sat down again on the bench again, still hoping you’d come even though I could feel my self is starting to froze, cause now my teeth were chattering because of the cold.

I reached for my phone and abruptly clicked on your name to call you. It was connected , so your phone must be turned on, now I wonder how could you be so late to picked me up? Is it because—-

A sound of voicemail hummed through the phone. You’ve rejected my call. I couldn’t believe this. I shook my head from my negative inspection and I tried once again to call you. Until then, I decided to shut off my phone cause you rejected it once again. I was so pissed. I quickly stood up and looked around the school yards, almost all of the students got home already, and I am the only one who looked like a total idiot waiting for someone who didn’t even showed up. Once again, I am pissed.

This might have been a nightmare, this might have been a dream. You broke your promise, you didn’t showed up, you almost made me froze because of waiting for you outside the school, you didn’t apologize and you rejected my call. What the hell is wrong with you?

I walked apace through the street, I couldn’t stand the coldness, I am shivering. My feelings were mixed up as one, but the worst one is Disappointment, a HUGE disappointment. I grabbed my phone once again, turned it on and still trying to reach him. His phone was stil turned on, and i am still waiting for him to answer it.

First time, you ignored. Then I tried again.

Second, you still ignored.

Third, you rejected it.

I sighed, and rush of emotion come running through my very veins. Question marks running on my mind, wondering what the hell is wrong with him.

The fourth time i tried, he did answered.

“Could you please stop calling me?”.

I cant believe what did I just heard. It must be a nightmare, this is not you. This cant be happening. I abruptly shut my phone and tears came rolling through my cheeks. I cant believe this.

I stopped walking and stared at my phone screen for a second. Still cant believe of what I just heard. Then my phone vibrated, as I looked to the screen, it was Donghae a friend of yours.

“yes?” I greeted.

“Hey bella where are you?” he asked.

My body was shivering because of the cold, and I tried to hold my self from crying out loud.

“I’m uhhh—- on the way back home, what is up?” I asked.

“No I was just looking for that silly girl” he said with his playful tone,

“Have you seen her?”. It must’ve been my chair mate, Dea. She’s been closed to Donghae for months.

“sorry I haven’t seen her” I replied shortly.

“well okay then, if you seen her, could you please tell her to go to this Italian Restaurant on the corner of the main street?”.

“okay fine” I said. After he thanked me, I shut the phone. My mood just dropped down below zero point, you made it all this. It was all because of you, and your bullshit promises. Now my thoughts is starting to go around and around, just like a ticking clock. If you couldn’t make it to my school, now where on earth could you be?. I took a deep breath and sighed.

Hence, I decided not to go straight home. I don’t care how cold is the breeze as the gray sky goes darker, I even silent my phone so then no one could bothered me. I walked around the main street, and like usual, I tried to find somewhere to eat and warm my self in. I walked passed the Italian Restaurant that Donghae just told me, and glanced through the wide window. It was not a really crowded restaurant, but somehow I could spotted someone there. Someone that is familiar, someone that I knew.

Broad shoulder, Black coats, Dimples, Black hair. It was you. Sitting on the left corner of the room. I moved closer to the wide window, until my nose was touching the cold glass. My vision was a bit blurry because of the moisted window but I could see that you were with your friends, but I didn’t know who are they. I cleared my eyes and wiped the window with my gloves, ad I noticed that you were gone.

I shook my head in disbelieve, was it just my imagination?.

“What are you doing here?”.

I looked to the side of where the voice came from. You were standing right beside me, you snug your hands in your pocket, and asked me with your cold and stony face.

“I’m being like a total idiot cos of waiting for some bullshit guy who promised to picked me up at school, happy now?”

“You should go home now”

He changed. This is not him. Where is the old siwon that I knew?

“ WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? Ive waited for you at school for thirty minutes and you rejected all of my phone calls! Are you out of your mind!?” I yelled straight on his face.

“Not now B, please just go home”

“You’ve changed”

“ go home , B” he said once more still with his his stony face.

“FINE! DON’T YOU EVER TRY TO REACH ME AGAIN!” I cried. I ran as fast as I can. I cant believe everything that he did. I couldn’t stand everything. He pissed me off even worse. He changed, he awfully changed.

Sore legs and wounded eyes, I went inside my warm house still with an exaggerating heartache. This was the worst day on 2010. It seems that all the thing was a nightmare. I walked callously passed the kitchen and the living room, then open my bedroom door.

A big smiling white teddy bear was sitting on my bed, holding a red medium size envelope. Question marks running through my head once more. Did he made all of this?. I reached out the envelope and slowly opened it. There’s a small card-like paper inside of it, and I reached it out and read it out loud.

Happy 5^th Anniversary My Princess

-Your Prince

Ps: Go to your backyard, NOW!

I read it over and over again until I realized all of the things from the beginning. Today is my 5^th anniversary and I didn’t even remembered it, and this is the gift from him. Without thinking further, I ran out to my backyard, breathless and my heart beating at the speed of a humming bird’s wings. As I opened the door,

There I saw The Prince.

He really is a prince. he wore his black coat over his jeans and a pair of sneakers, holding a strings of colorful balloons over his head. He was smiling gently and I noticed he was wearing a crown, a Prince Crown. Tears rolling down my cheeks as he said ,

“Happy Anniversary My dear Princess”

I swiftly ran to him and stopped in front of him. Looking through his clear eyes. I stared at him in disbelief, he made all of this, even though he’s not good at making surprise, but he did all of this!.

“How could you?” I ran out of words. All I can do is smiling with tears.

He tilted his head to the right, as if he’s trying to point over something to me. I looked back and there I saw Dea and Donghae standing near the door, and dea was holding a white tiara. She walked closer to me and put the tiara on top of my head. I hugged and thanked her.

Then I turned to my handsome prince, he looked so flawless with his smile.

“Take a look at this b, there’s a note that tied on the balloon’s string, the note that I made for us” . I moved even closer and looked at the small crappy notes that tied on it.

‘I’ve fallen in love many times, and it’s always with you. For you see, each day I love you more, Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow’

He is the sweetest thing in life that ever happened to me till this very moment.

“Now lets free the balloons. Hold this string with me, then on the count of 3, we let them go, ok b?” he asked. I nodded happily, then he counted.

“1…2….3”.

The groups of colorful balloons flew above the icy gray afternoon. We watched as the balloon gone through the open air and they disappeared through the puffy clouds.

He holds my hand and swing it softly side to side, I looked into his playful eyes and smiled.

“I’m sorry B, once again, I messed up the surprise. I made you upset” he messed up my hair.

“Yeah you really good on acting it out, I was really mad at you” I said.

“ It should’ve be donghae who picked you up at school but he missed understood and he was busy looking for his girl. And you already left when he reached your school. While me, I was busy preparing this balloon and the doll and so on, that’s why I was around the mainstreet and I was panicked when I saw you there”

I didn’t say anything than just giggling. I gazed to his eyes and he gives me warmth by hugging me tenderly.

“Siwon , I am so glad I have you In my life, thank you for everything” I said.

“You know B, when you have found your princess you know that you’re not only have a smile on your face but in your heart as well”

I smiled, I ran out of words.

“and How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard”.

I cant express my feeling right then, I feel like I am so damn special. I looked upon his face, and he gently move closer to me, and kissed my forehead tenderly.

You are the sweetest thing in life.

The Sweet End of 2009

Fri, 01 Jan 2010 04:19:00 -0500

Tony Bennett’s Jazzy voice flaming through the radio. I felt I almost fallen asleep by just listening to this song called “The way you looked tonight”. Yes, it was your favorite old song, and there’s nothing I can do with it, so I guessed I’m gonna try to sing a long with you, even if it’s for the tenth times we did it, cause by seeing you beside me, driving the car gallantly, and your voice is in the air, you were singing with your smile, it is one of my pleasure too.

Last hour, I remembered you told me that you wanted to take me out to the city and celebrate the new years eve . You said that you would love to spend the night with me, strolling around the city and find somewhere that we can do a new year countdown and watch the dazzling fireworks.

In spite of that, Sungmin will be having his birthday party at his crib, I am invited and of course you too , I guess it would be so fun , and I’m excited much. But now, we ended up driving with no destination. It looks like you didn’t even remember that we supposed to be at Sungmin’s crib, it’s almost 9 and the party is going to start anytime soon. Nonetheless, I have no guts to bother you. You were enjoying the night, singing, laughing, looked at me with your tender smile. So I pretend to forget everything that we have planned before and enjoy the night with you.

I looked out to the window, my eyes was budging to the outside crowds. The sky looks clear, clear enough to see the sparkling stars above, and the street draped with white cotton-like snow, it have been a cold and languid December in Seoul . Still unconcerned of where are we heading to, I just realized that we were heading to the highway. I abruptly stopped singing and asked,

“Wait a minute, where are we going exactly?”

He playfully glanced at me and stopped singing.

“Well…… I don’t know”

He smiled a bit and continued with laughters.

“But we’re heading to the highway, aren’t we supposed to be around town?” I asked, and a little fear trembled me for a second, I’m afraid that we will be going too far and maybe.. lost?

“Chill out b, I’m not going to kidnap you haha”

He laughed again and now he messed up my hair with his playful hand.

“Okay, are you afraid?” he asked me kindly with his soft tone and his palms still on top of my head.

Did he just read my mind? It seems like he almost knew everything about me. I gave him a short nod and a little smile.

“alright then, we could just turn around if you don’t really like the highway. Don’t worry b, we’ll have fun tonight okay?” .

That’s what I like about him. He is always soothing, he threw my worries away and replaced it with a pack of happiness. I feel so lucky to have him.

Through the speeding cars, you still courageously driving and exited the highway. Passed the dim street lights, buildings and empty houses , we were trying to find on our way to the furthest city light. An intense excitement rolling around my body, I cant wait to see the enormous Seoul downtown that filled with a unique new year’s eve decoration, shimmering lights and an exhilarating crowds.

Once we arrived at the downtown, my eyes opened widely and I almost startled , I feel like im a kid entering a huge candy store, paralyzed by the massive lickerish and various lollypops . You slowly drive the car through the enchanting downtown, and goggled the surroundings just like I did.

“This is wonderful” I said and looked up to the tall building with a huge round clock hanging on top of it and ready to countdown the new year’s celebration. I glanced to you for a second, and you still looking around with your dimply smile, I could say that you are excited too. Your eyes can’t lie.

“You want me to park somewhere so then we could stroll around the street, b?” he merely asked with a raised eyebrows.

“Yes! Oh I cant hardly wait!!!” . I’m impressively excited, not just because of the downtown but also because.. this is the first time of my life, celebrating the new year with the boy of my dream.

The unbearable icy breezes nibbled my skin when I got out from the car. It was breezily cold and a tiny drop of snow started to sprinkle my nose. I walked along the pedestrian way with you by my side.You wore a woolen black long coat and a jet black boots, while im just wearing a thin woolen pink sweater with blue jeans and a pair of knee high boots. Right then, the aching cold starts to go through my veins, I can feel that I’m nearly freezing. I slightly lock my arms around yours and snuggled a little bit because of the cold, then you placed your arms around my shoulder to give me warmth, and I felt even better.

We strolled around the city, enjoying the wonderful city sight which is full of shimmering lights. You still wrapped your arms around my shoulder as we pushes past the filtering crowds. People are eating, talking, wandering, standing near the tall building with a huge clock that I’ve seen before, they were ready to celebrate the new year.

Murmurs of people were fuming through my ears, and their eyes were locked on us. I realized that they were whispering to each other and somewhat dazzled to see us. Oh I recognized that its not about us, its about you! I found it so funny living in this situation, where your boyfriend is everybody’s heartthrob they were all gotten on a star struck and I am the lucky girl.

I looked up to you and you glanced at me with your coolest smile and people are started to shrieked as they realized that you were here. Oh my god this is not a perfect timing. You pulled me to walk further away from the crowds and now the girls are calling your name, then a flashing lights of the camera were trying to spot us right at our face.

“I think we should go home as soon as possible b, its not safe in here” he said as we rushed to the place where he parked his car. I looked back to the crowds and the girls are still calling your name, and… looking jealous. By that time, once again I knew that I am damn so LUCKY.

I could say that the crowds messed up our plan. It’s now 11 o’clock and we failed to watch the fireworks and do the countdown. It’s one hour left to 2010 and we couldn’t make it to both of our plan, Neither going to Sungmin’s crib or watching the fireworks at downtown. And guess what? I ended up cooking Ramen for dinner at my kitchen, the cold just invited my appetite in, and I guess your appetite too.

As soon as I got out from the kitchen with a two hot bowl of ramen , you were already sitting in front of the fireplace, you looks so hungry.

“Here’s the ramen, watch out, it’s still hot” I said.

“Oh I’m so hungry b, the breeze is crazy” he said by holding the ramen bowl on his left palm.

“The girls were crazy too” i added. He was entering the ramen to his mouth and he stopped as he listened to what I just said, he smirked.

“ I’m glad cause now they know that I already had you” he electrified me with his words. I feel prouder than before, he makes me feel so special.

“ah siwonnie, im flattered” , just as usual, my cheeks turned to red even though he had flattered me more than enough.

After finished filling our tummy with the hot ramen that I just made, we went to the balcony where we can see the city view from the distance. The clock is showing 23:57 , three minutes to midnight, and I’m still wishing I could see the fireworks from here. Right then, your cell phone rang. You picked it up and put it on loudspeaker. I recognized the voice. It was one of your friends , Leetuk. But his voice is barely heard because of the loud noise that coming from his place, I bet he’s in sungmin’s.

“Siwon-shi! Where are you? You should be here with bella! It’s almost midnight!” he said, half-shouting

“ Hyung! Ohh I’m sorry I can’t come, I told sungmin already! I promised to spend the night with bella”.

“Ahh too bad! Everybody’s here, wish you both were here! By the way! Happy New Year for Both of you. God bless you two!” he cheerfully shouted.

“THANKS TEUKKIE! Please send my birthday wishes to Sungmin Oppa! Sorry I cant come either!” I replied.

“Hey Bella! Oh sure! Im gonna tell sungmin after this! Well then, Happy 2010! Have funn!!”. He shut the phone before I got a chance to wished him a happy new year.

Now the fireworks are splashing, filtering the dark sky with their enormous sparks. I could see it from here, My new year isn’t that bad after all, and besides. You were still here, with your arms around my waist, you whispered

“Happy New Year Bella, thank you for being the light of my life, I can do nothing without you”.

I turned around and faced him and I abruptly wrapped my arm around him. Hugged him tenderly and wishpered.

“Happy new year to you too, Thank you for rocking my world in 2009. I love you more”.

“I’ll keep on rocking, trust me” he replied.

I laughed hard, and yes… I’ll keep on shining for you too.

About you

Sun, 27 Dec 2009 08:56:45 -0500

I would like to share you a little bit of His facts here. Just wanna let you know, that we’ve been doing so fine since he’s back in town, and today I would like you to know his habits, facts and so on. Hopefully, by reading this you guys would easily dive into my thoughts , mingling with my feeling so then you can feel it too. Here it goes.

1. You had me at ‘Hello’.

For the very first time, I have never seen a guy or maybe a stranger passed by me, with a grin on his face , raised his hands but only with 3 fingers, and said “Hello” cheerfully. he was holding a cup of coffee and passed by me and said Hello. I remembered he wore a gray long sleeve shirt and black jeans, he looked awesome. The first glance means everything, I came home by still wondering who is he until the next 2 days, we met again at the same place.

2. Your Favorite Old Song.

He told me that he loved an old song for 15 years and up till now. Kinda unique isn’t it?. He said that this song is his favorite one, It’s Tony Bennett’s ‘The way you looked tonight’. What I knew is, that this song is some kind like wedding song. I still don’t get it why he really loved the song. I asked him several times but he always answered “Because I like it”. But I admit that this song has a really meaningful lyric, it is so sweet.

3. Your different scent.

For your information, He has a different scent. He loved to buy perfumes but his scent was different. I mean I can tell what perfume it is when someone sprayed it on by just smelling and not even looking. But in his case, I can’t . His scent is different, and that is what I missed the most when he was away. It’s only him who got that scent, or maybe its only me who can smell it? Who knows. He is different.

4. Your Big Bear Hug

“I’d love to hug someone that is huggable, like you” . He once said that to me, and I feel my cheeks were burning in red. He loved to give me a hug in any condition. His big and warmth hug is always soothing, and always brings up my mood. His friends told me that too, he’s just such an angel.

5. You’re a gentleman.

Yep he is. He’s a man that knows what his role is and knows how to be a man. He knows how to treat woman and He got a fond personality. He’s beautiful inside out. He once showed me that he always come first to apologize when something bad happened, he’s a gentleman by staying away from a fight, and never ever start the fire. I admit I always feel safe when he’s around.

6. Your eyes wont tell lies.

When it comes to his eyes, all I see is truth. He would never tells a lie, I believed in him.

7. You’re only you when you’re with me.

He never told me why he always dressed so plainly every time we meet each other , he’s not the guy that I used to see on the tv or internet. Once again, he’s different. He always show me the real him, that makes him even more beautiful than ever.

8. Your answer of “why you loved me?”

I have never get a chance to asked him that question above. but he has answered it already. That is also the answer of the love we had. It’s powerful, and it’s wonderful.

It were all just because : “You are my everything”.

I am his everything, and He is my everything too. We have each other. We got the LOVE.

Now have you got it too?

Home.

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 08:28:56 -0500

Raindrops fell from the massive towered trees as I walked through the empty street. I looked up to the sky and I saw the clouds create a nice cool blanket from the hot sun. I was on my way back home from school, I guess I am the very last student who got home around 3 . It was not a really nice day, cause the sky just turned gray, and i forgot to bring my umbrella with me, I am ready to be soaked. I walked apace but uncertain of where am I heading cause now the raindrops turned out to be a heavy rain. I decided to run and find somewhere to hide myself from the rapid rainfalls.

With my soaked clothes , hairs and shoes , I came running to a small ice cream shop on the corner of the street, well at least I found somewhere to chill in and stayed out of the pouring rain. I decided to sit and waited for the rain to calm. Hopefully, the ice cream shop served a Hot Chocolate for beverages so then I ordered one to give me warmth, I just don’t want to caught a flu just because of this.

Okay once I sat down and watched the pouring rain, the image of YOU, yes you… just came out of hiding. It was clear enough that I missed you more than no one can ever imagine, sometimes it was hurt but I always try to let go by believing in you, just like what you said earlier. I checked on my phone and there’s no missed calls, no messages. Somehow I wondered , how busy you are? Don’t you have.. well just a second to text me?. I tried to ripped you off of my mind but I couldn’t, this is getting too complicated. You should be home by now, or yesterday or even last week but you didn’t even tell me where you are. It’s nearly Christmas and you supposed to be home. I sipped on the hot chocolate that I ordered and hoping to ease this pain of you, actually this was not supposed to hurt.

Hours passed by and the rain wouldn’t stop, I’m a bit worried that this would be a long rain and means that I have to spend more times here, doing nothing.. and I guess my mind would be full of YOU. Right then, my cell phone vibrated. My heart start to pound before I checked on it, This could be you . Sadly, it was not your name that showed on the screen, it was my mom. I felt my mood drop all of a sudden, but I answered it anyway.

“Yes mom?” I greeted.

“Can you please come home now? Where are you?” she asked.

I abruptly sighed and replied her with my flat tone

“It’s still raining and there’s no way I can be home by now, mom. I have no Umbrella”

“Get a taxi! Be home quick!”

Then she shut the phone. I have no ideas why the hell is she doing this, hurried me up. I didn’t do anything after she called, I better stayed here until the rain is really stopping.

The clock is showing 5 o’clock and the skies looks brighter than before. The tiny droplets of rain was still tipping but it was better than before. I have chosen to leave the ice cream shop and walked home all by my own.

Fifteen minutes later , I arrived at my empty home. It feels like no one’s here, I don’t see my mom nor my siblings. I lazily went into my room and closed its door without even recognizing that something just changed. I realized that there are pink roses on my bed. They are tidily spreading on my bed and I am thrilled. There’s nothing passed my mind except you. This must be you, all the sweet things, flowers and all… it must be you. My heart thumped faster and faster, as I found a small note on top of the roses. It says,

“ Please meet me up soon, I miss you… a lot”

My knees are shaken, my heart thumped extra fast, I don’t know exactly how to describe this. There’s nothing more happier than this. If the roses were here, then he might be somewhere here too! He might be here hiding under my bed or in my bathroom? He’s here!!. Before I moved an inch, my door swungs open. Again, It was my mom.

“For godsake Bella! Where have you been?” she yelled.

“Mom! Where is he? Did he send me all of this or….?”

“He was here. But he went home already, I did call you to come home, but you wouldn’t listen. He’s looking for you”

I can feel my eyes are burning, and my tears tickled me, they are ready to come out.

“Why wouldn’t you tell me?” I asked.

“Cause he told me not to! He’s planning to give you a surprise but you didn’t come either, so then he asked me if he could just put those roses on your bed..”

“Did he says anything else mom? Please let me know!!”

“Well… he actually said that he’s gonna wait for you at somewhere but… oh I forgot! You should call him. Maybe he’s still there”.

Without even thinking, I knew where it is. I abruptly went outside without telling my mom where am I going, I took the car key and quickly drive to the place that I knew. It must be the oak tree, where he used to wait me after school. It must be.

I parked the car and I ran to the place where we used to meet. Numerous of oak trees were there, it was a nice park with a cold atmosphere, and it was pretty damp because of the rain. From the distance I could almost smell you, and I can see your figure. Yes, you were there. You were sitting under the big oak tree, the place where we used to sit down and chill in. You were wearing a black coat with jeans and your favorite shoe, your hands were in your pocket and…. You just looked the same. I was standing still, I didn’t do anything until you saw me. You tilted your head and I can see that your face is full of excitement, as you waved your hands up high and smiled. I can finally see those two dimples.

I felt the joy, and the tears, as I walked fast and I saw you smiling widely, and I stopped. I stopped walking when I saw you just infront of me, we didn’t say anything, we were standing still, and I feel my body was shaking. You sighed,then you constantly said,

“Hug?”

Again, I buried my self in you. You hugged me tight like you would never let me go. I could feel everything.. your warmth, your scent, your love, everything. Finally you are home, you were here with me again, you’re back. We were still hugging with no sound, I can feel that he’s really is missing me, just like I do.

“I’m home” he said.

“ yes you do. Finally, you’re here with me!!” I said and smiled, looked up to him.

“ Didn’t I always with you?” he asked.

“No you’re not! You’ve been away too long” I said .

“No I didn’t , I am always with you”

“Oh stop it siwonnie, I really missed you”

“I do too, b”.

“But b, I guess im not good at suprising”

“Haha how funny”

“Now tell me, are you surprised enough?”

“OF COURSE!”

“I guess you’re good at lying , b”

Laughter filled the air. We were holding each other, sharing our stories, this is more that I could ever imagine, he’s finally home. I believe that this gonna be a long story, I mean the new story just begun, Siwon is here, there’s nothing more happier than this.

I love you.

If You Believe In Me

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 06:48:43 -0500

The Applauses of Howling Crowds successfully molested my earshot. I didn’t really understand of what are you talking about, but I could almost feel that you were very happy, tremendously happy. I tried to listen carefully to your voice but I couldn’t , you were standing in the middle of a noise pollution, it was too loud.

I was waiting for you to call ever since you’re gone. I was wondering how have you been doing, and that day, you threw away all of my worries, and I can feel that you’ll soon be home, you’ll soon be here, with me.

Still, The sounds of howling crowds keep molesting my earshot, it’s too loud, I couldn’t hear you talking.

“Where are you now? Are you in the middle of the show?” I asked with my high-pitched tone.

“ Bella, We won! We won the Golden disk awards! YEAHH!” He shouted very clearly.

I could feel that suddenly , my heart beats faster, and I could feel that you really are happy. I laid flat on my bed, trying to get a comfy position cause I know, this gonna be a long conversation.

“CONGRATULATIONS YOU GUYS!!!! OH how I wish I was there!!!” I shouted again, and my tummy sarted to churn briefly , as if I haven’t eaten anything for the whole day. This nerves electrified me, I am really excited.

“Wait a minute b, I cant really hear you, im gonna stay out from the crowds”, he said. Now that’s more like it. After a few seconds, the howling crowds were no longer can be heard, and there’s no other voice than him.

“So, How are you? I’ve been doing so fine, I lost a couple of weight, but its not a big deal! And oh! I got a new cut! You’re gonna love it B, I cant wait to see you, cause I brought you something too!” .

“ I’ve been worried about you! Now I am so glad you finally called! Please come home soon” I begged, I can imagine what would my face look like right now, I really am begging him.

“You’ve worried about me? B, listen up, I don’t want you to get strained just because of thinking about me, I don’t want to pressure you B, so please… don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine” . He meekly said his words, and I feel like hugging him now, he always be this sweet.

“How could I ? Siwonnie, you’re not here, you were out there far away from here and I couldn’t see you, how would I know that you’re okay? “.

“That’s why I’m calling you B, im fine now,Believe me. I just wanted to let you know that I am having such a wonderful times here, we won the awards, and…. Its just, I wish you were here, you should be here, you should celebrate the moment too, I really miss you” .

That time, I felt a rush of a tear. I didn’t know exactly why am I crying, but I guess… it’s because we are connected, I can feel just exactly how he feels, and plus…. I miss him too.

“Once again congratulations siwonnie, I really miss you too, I could hear that you are having this heart beating faster than ever just like I did, am I right?”.

He laughed, and I can visioned his laughter.

“and I can see that you are smiling widely right now too, and you must be lying on your bed with your pajamas on cause you are ready to sleep”. Now its my turn to laugh hard, I cant help this, I want him to be home by now.

“Ahhh siwonnie, you’re good at guessing!” I laughed again, and I heard he laughed as well.

“B, my manager just told me to get ready, so I guess we should end up in a couple of seconds, I’m sorry” he said.

“But we havent talked much!! Agh, so that means I should wait for tomorrow to talk to you? Would you call me early in the morning?” I asked. I tried the possible way to talked to him more often , and I just wanted to share him my stories.

“Here’s the deal B, We will gonna meet ASAP and we’ll gonna have fun, but IF you believe in me now” . I wonder where does he learn this phrases.

“Okay, well its nearly impossible, but I’ll try believe in you”, I said. Then the phone went off. He didn’t even say goodbye.

I hesitated and wrapped my self in my pink blanket, still thinking about him. Until my eyes closed and I entered the world of my dream.

And there’s you. Waiting for me , sitting on a bench with flowers in your hand, and a smile across your face. As I get closer, you stood up and moved forward to me.

As we got closer, you stroke my cheeks with your soft palm, and by looking through my eyes, you gently said,

“I am here with you”.

And from that on, I will always believe in you.

Once Upon A Night

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 06:46:00 -0500

Since you were away,and I don’t have any idea when will you be back.. I decided to bring back my sweet memories of you and type it all down here, I would never get enough of it. I hope by this, you’ll know how much I miss you.

I was sitting cross-legged on the floor with my evening gown on. I supposed to be very excited that night, I supposed to be very wholehearted on getting my self ready, getting my make up done and so on, but I wasn’t, I wasn’t really happy.

It was my First High-school Prom night. I found it not exciting at all. I got no energy to have some fun that night, well.. maybe my mom does. She’s the one who’s excited, she’s the one who picked the evening gown for me, she’s the one who’ll gonna do the make up and hair dos for me.

Still sitting on the floor, your image overwhelmed my brain. It’s been 2 weeks since I met you at the Coffee Shop , we got along well, we often see each other, and you stuck here, inside my mind. I have no idea why. The image of you wont fade away, I vision your excellence, the way you treated me, the way you tell me your silly stories, your silly jokes, its just… perfect.

I memorized our conversation last 3 days. It was a crisp afternoon, we met at the park near my school, and sat under the big oak tree. I’m still with my school Uniform, while you… you always looks fine with anything you wore.

“What’s up with your puckered lips?” he asked, looking at me deeply. Then he continued ,

“Is it about the prom night you told me before?” he asked again, now he got more serious.

I nodded twice, with my head facing downwards. Yes, I was sad. He touched my chin and lifted it up softly with his thumb, until my eyes met his.

“ Hey, look at me .Tell me what made you sad” , His eyes always looks clear and honest, I can do anything than answering his question.

“I don’t want to go to prom, no one wanted to go with me as a partner. The boys sucked much” I whined.

“The prom theme is Classical Evening, means that I should wear an Evening gown, and I should pick someone as a partner. Hell yeah, I got no interest at all” I keep whining. I believe he is listening.

“ Why is that no one wanted to go with you?” he asked by messing up the back of his hair.

“Why should I care? I would’ve gone with anyone, nobody wanted to go with me, so I better not going” I said and folded my arm infront of my chest.

He smiled, with those two dimples, and he tap me on my shoulder twice, as if my statement was funny.

He didn’t even help me, he’s just smiling and smiling. I ended up going home still with sadness. He’s not even helping. But the image of him is STILL inside my mind. Did he put a glue in it?

So then I’m still sitting on the floor that night, until my mom came and she rushes to do my hair. She’s sharing her first prom-nite to me while she put on her makeups on me, and I still wasn’t really excited.

There will be no one who pick me up with the fabulous car, then drop me home late at night. There will be no one who open the car door for me, there’ll be no fun.

Fifteen minutes later, I looked my self in the mirror, I changed, my mom successfully made me look so beautiful, I admit it. She did something with my eyes so then I could clearly see my bright eyes, and my lips, it shines. It’s wonderful.With my Soft Pink Evening gown, I just feel so perfect, But I didn’t see my self as a princess yet, I still have no prince, and I’m not gonna feel the fun.

I heard a rush from the staircase, it was a stepping foot of mom, I bet she’s In a hurry to see me.

“Bella! Bella! The Boy has arrived! He’s waiting for you infront of the house! Hurry out!”.

I should have been dreaming. Come on, no one even accepted me to be a partner, then who the hell is this boy?. I rushed to my window and opened the curtain.

A tall guy with tuxedo Holding a Bouquet of Red roses and standin infront of a shiny black Mercedes benz. I am dazzled, it was him. It was my prince!!

I am constantly feel excited, I glanced at my self in the mirror, and now I see myself as a princess!.

I walked out of the house, and he turned back, looking at me. He dazzled as well, and yes, he looked so flawless.

“Good Evening My Princess Bella” He greeted and he bowed with his one hand handing me the roses.

I picked it out and said with bow as well , “Good evening My Prince Siwon”.

“May I?” He reached out my hand and walked me to the car, opened my door and he smiled very genty. I just love him, he really is a prince. I cant explain how happy am I , how excited I am to start the night.

Before he started the engine, he looked at me and smiled.

“You looked perfect, now please smile, I promise im gonna make this night, As a night that you will remember forever for the rest of your life. The night where our story start, The story of Prince Choi Siwon and Princess Anizabella”.

“Thank you my prince, you saved my night, and yes… this is where our story started “

And right at this very moment, I believe the story is still going on and on. It would never end.You will always be my prince, just remember that.

Xo,

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Sat, 26 Dec 2009 06:44:41 -0500

I still remembered the day. It was a cheerful afternoon, with a merry blue skies , dancing clouds and a touch of orange-like sunshine.

We were walking along the beach that swathed with a serene atmosphere. The winds swayed my hair gently, and I swiftly felt the bliss.

The bliss that I’ve been missing, The bliss that ive been waiting.

The Bliss, by Knowing that you are here with me.

We were holding hands. You were there, beside me, with your loose white top and your clumsy knee high jeans. You looked so adorable by the way you act. The way you glimpsed at me, then you smirked with no reason. I couldn’t think of anything else beside you. You were there. I am with you.

None of us tried to break the silence and start the conversation, cause we know none of us wanted this to end, it’s all to sweet to last. So, we continued to walk along the beach. I saw The waves are waving their hands as if they are trying to say, “Come here! Lets have some fun”. But no, I don’t want anything else beside this, staying right beside him.

I looked up upon your face, and smiled. I cant believe that you were really here. We were finally together. This is such a miracle.

“Tell me what are you thinking right now” He broke the silence by asking me that question and stopped walking.

I didn’t know what to say, until he faced me. He was there infront of me. I looked in to his eyes, his wonderful eyes . Now I know what ive been thinking so far.

“I guess, you already know” I smiled.

He folded his arm infront of his chest and start smiling with those two dimples.

“Oh come on! Aren’t you happy right now?” he asked.

“Of course! What could be more happier than this?” i feel my self blushed, my cheeks are flaming red, and I snorted

“Now tell me what are you thinking about right now” I asked. He curved his eyebrow, and he rolled his eyes. he looked so funny.

“I’m thinking……. What should I do to make you happy when I’m not around you”.

He just shot me right on my heart, I am tremendously falling in love. Then he keep on going,

“ I have never seen you so happy like this before, I don’t wanted to see those smile fade away” he said.

“Oh it wouldn’t be fade away, trust me” I Lied. I could completely lost even an inch of a smile , by knowing that he’s not around.

“ I’m your bodyguard, remember? My job is to keep you save including to not let those smiles away” he smiled then he put his palms on my head, and he messed up my hair.

“Siwonnie…”

He stopped messed up my hair, he tidied em back gently, and now he looked to my eyes warmly.

“Yes?”

“ How long will you be in Thailand and so on?” I asked. He grinned with tenderness and he asked me to sit down on the sand with him.

He rubbed my hair before he said his words.

“It wont be long, I promise I’ll keep in touch with you. I miss you already”

“Don’t forget to eat your vitamins, it’ll be such a hectic days” I am worried, so worried.

“Yes noona, I would never forget it! Just don’t worry okay? I’ll be fine” he placed his arm around my shoulder , and I felt the warmth. I’ll miss him.

“ I wish we could stay like this forever” I declared. He looked at me by a second and smiled at me without even blinking. I looked at him, and he simply widen his arm infront of me and said,

“Hug?”

Without even answering, I abruptly buried my self inside of his big-bear hug. I would never forget the warmth, the love, the tenderness. I would never forget those.

The cheerful afternoon turned into a dazzling night, we were still there leaning against each other. I feel like the world is just ours. His carefree laughter and his tender love heals everything. And I remembered his last meaningful words that day :

“ I am right here, and I am still with you, wherever and whenever I go. I am your lifetime bodyguard, don’t worry. Take care, I miss you already. Saranghae”.

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